Posts Tagged ‘ I’m Good ’

A While

So I haven’t posted in a while and alot has happened. Life has gotten so much better since march 19th the night I met Kristen Pell. My band, Creamery Road, played at Denny O’s in Fulton. We got done and Taylor wanted to stay at my mom’s house that night so I stayed out with the band and sat down with one of my guitarists. He was talking to Deb, Kristen’s mom and Kristen was sitting next to her. I saw her and immediately thought she was cute. Long story short we ended up talking and hanging out all night. I didn’t have the guts to ask her out face to face and she wanted to buy me a drink because I bout her one earlier. I told her no but if she would go on a date with me we’d call it even. She said yes. We went out that next Thursday night and I completely fell in love. On the 28th I asked her to be my girlfriend, I felt like I was in high school again, but its the best question I ever asked.

So it has been a little overall month since I asked her and I am so happy. She is the most important person in my life, other than my daughter, and I am so greatful that I met her.

Right now I am sitting on the beach in Maui, HI thinking about her and wishing that she was with me to see this. We started in Honolulu last Saturday and flew to Maui on Tuesday. I miss her so much but am enjoying the trip. It is beautiful here and one day would love to bring her here.

The one thing that is a constant thought is I love her with every part of me. Words don’t describe the feeling.g and attachment I have for her. Life is seriously amazing. That a smart, beautiful woman like her could love a broken man like me.

I am blessed and thankful for it. I love you Kristen.

Much Better :)

I feel much better today. I had to vent my emotions or I thought I would crack and lose altitude. She doesn’t scare easily and she understands the way I think. It wasn’t just my insecurity bothering me yesterday. It was other things but today I’m fine. I will deal with the consequences of my choices, though in my mind I made the right choice and I know my immediate family agrees and many close friends. Only a few people know what I’m talking about and I want to keep it that way, but my blog is my “diary” so to speak and this is my therapy. The way I pour out my heart to binary code (rather than paper).

Tonight I have band practice with Creamery Road. A country/classic rock band from my hometown. One of my friends asked me to try out playing bass with them and it has worked out very well so far! It is another form of release for me where my heart and soul pours out in music through my fingers. Every Wednesday I can preverbaly slit my wrists and drain myself all over the floor. Everything came together very quick and smooth, I just fit in place.

Today is my 3rd day of Jimmy Johns instead of fast food for lunch. Still not doing well on the bad food at night, but in the morning and noon I am doing well. Next I have to start working out and try to kick smoking. If I can get a good workout regiment going on Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, & Saturday I should be able to drop another 15-20 lbs in no time. Size 36 pants here I come !!! 🙂