Posts Tagged ‘ lonely ’

Where is it?

Where is the picture perfect romance that I see on tv? Why can’t I find that one woman that wants me? To settle down, be happy, have a family, make a family and spend the rest of our lives making memories and stories to tell our future kids?
All I want is a cute quiet girl that sees me for me. Someone that doesn’t mind my flaws. Loves kids, since I have one its a requirement lol. I don’t want a rebound.
I don’t wanna go out everynight. I’m a homebody but don’t mind a good night out.
I really don’t know why I’m writing this out its pointless, but whatever. It’s done.

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Alone

I wish I could say I like being alone but I can’t. If I liked it I wouldn’t keep myself so busy. I poured my heart out Saturday night to no avail. I still ended up right where I started. Though I did make some friends on the way. Possibly some enemies too. Which is too bad.

But anyway today wasn’t too bad. It went fairly smooth and quick. Once I got home I finally moved the lumber that was stacked in the drive way to the basement. Hopefully tomorrow I can get the debris from the closet hauled out and get some more wiring done. I really hope we don’t find much that needs repairing while trying to frame up the rooms in the basement. This feels like its taking forever to get started but it will be worth the time and effort.

Writing

I have been doing alot of writing the last week or so, just not on here. I have been keeping busy. The job hunt is going and ADM knows I’m looking. Have been getting alot done around my place. My uncle put trees in my front and back yard a few weeks ago, then started on the fence which should be done in the next couple days! I ripped a closet out of my basement in preparation for the up coming remodel/finishing of the basement. Started designing the wiring plans to rewire the house when we start framing, luckily I don’t think I will have make any changes to the piping. Other than frame around some pipes. The wiring will be lots of fun, the way the house is wired now is one big cluster f*#%. So each room is going to be rewired, which will take some time but I’m going to do it right, damnit!

So there hasn’t been much else going on that I want to rant about on here. All I can say is I miss her and wish she would come back to me. I’m going to go shower and off to bed!

Happy Alone Valentines Day

So I was looking forward to spending this Valentines day with someone special, but as usual I screwed it up again. I moved too fast for her. We are still friends but I think that’s about it. I will be alone again for V-Day, it shouldn’t be a big surprise though. I am trying to stay positive through the loneliness.

Blue

I am blue. And scared.And lonely.