Posts Tagged ‘ memories ’

Writing

I have been doing alot of writing the last week or so, just not on here. I have been keeping busy. The job hunt is going and ADM knows I’m looking. Have been getting alot done around my place. My uncle put trees in my front and back yard a few weeks ago, then started on the fence which should be done in the next couple days! I ripped a closet out of my basement in preparation for the up coming remodel/finishing of the basement. Started designing the wiring plans to rewire the house when we start framing, luckily I don’t think I will have make any changes to the piping. Other than frame around some pipes. The wiring will be lots of fun, the way the house is wired now is one big cluster f*#%. So each room is going to be rewired, which will take some time but I’m going to do it right, damnit!

So there hasn’t been much else going on that I want to rant about on here. All I can say is I miss her and wish she would come back to me. I’m going to go shower and off to bed!

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A While

So I haven’t posted in a while and alot has happened. Life has gotten so much better since march 19th the night I met Kristen Pell. My band, Creamery Road, played at Denny O’s in Fulton. We got done and Taylor wanted to stay at my mom’s house that night so I stayed out with the band and sat down with one of my guitarists. He was talking to Deb, Kristen’s mom and Kristen was sitting next to her. I saw her and immediately thought she was cute. Long story short we ended up talking and hanging out all night. I didn’t have the guts to ask her out face to face and she wanted to buy me a drink because I bout her one earlier. I told her no but if she would go on a date with me we’d call it even. She said yes. We went out that next Thursday night and I completely fell in love. On the 28th I asked her to be my girlfriend, I felt like I was in high school again, but its the best question I ever asked.

So it has been a little overall month since I asked her and I am so happy. She is the most important person in my life, other than my daughter, and I am so greatful that I met her.

Right now I am sitting on the beach in Maui, HI thinking about her and wishing that she was with me to see this. We started in Honolulu last Saturday and flew to Maui on Tuesday. I miss her so much but am enjoying the trip. It is beautiful here and one day would love to bring her here.

The one thing that is a constant thought is I love her with every part of me. Words don’t describe the feeling.g and attachment I have for her. Life is seriously amazing. That a smart, beautiful woman like her could love a broken man like me.

I am blessed and thankful for it. I love you Kristen.

Exiting the Rabbit Hole

A twinge in my gut told me it was done. I found myself going over and over in my mind from day on to now. I am fine with this life and fine with how it ended. I pray that everything works out for her. I will be there for her as a friend and a confidant, though she won’t confide in me. I will endure my time and be happy again.

“Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” but also, the pain that endures for the sake of my friend will forever be the downfall of my ability to love without memory of another.

None may ever read what I write but it is written to be remembered if by no one but myself.